This Fire

I'm back home, resting stationary after one of the crazy emotional roller coaster. For more complete details you'll have to be a close friend of mine. Here are some highlights though:

• On the 2nd, Joe B. told me that whatever God wanted me to do would give me peace, so I decided to talk to Dr. Beiting about staying here. And I also prayed for signs pointing me in the right direction. Dr. B. gave me loads of encouragement and signs were falling from the sky assuring me that though it would be "impratical" to stay I could make huge progress in personal development; there are two of the best history and literature professors here and in connection with theater, Mrs. Fedie can train me to sing better, while Dr. Alvarado can continue training me in acting. I felt so relieved at the thought of staying and apparentently my best friend Shannon, unbeknowest to me, also wanted me to stay here.
• Laura on studying for finals: "Studying for finals is intellectual bulimia for us!"
• The day of graduation was chaotic for its conflict of emotions. It's wonderful and horrible to see my friends graduate and get on with their lives. I wish them the best and I miss them so much it hurts.
• I got horrible news from home right after the party was over, so I sat in the parking lot and cried for five minutes.
• Back at our apartment, knowing I was upset and refusing to talk about it, Monica requested a dance to Sarah MacLaughlan's I Will Remember You which was so sweet I cried again.
• My friend David, a townie and my spiritual brother, who I hadn't seen or heard from for almost two months came to say goodbye to me before I left. For some reason his visit helped me refocus my day.
• Hanging out on the steps of Rosa with Roman, Liz, Terese, my old roommate Angie, just back from Europe, drinking wine, smoking cigarettes and trying to pass off the digusting cigars Liz had gotten onto unsuspecting victims. It didn't work. (It was so great, even though I got tipsy after a half a glass of wine.) My friends are so amazing! I want to live around them forever! Argh!
• Getting "engaged" to Mel at Sidetracks afterwards. I forgot to give it back to her so apparently we're still engaged. Oops.
• Walking back from Sidetracks with Sean. As the rain began to drizzle down, he asked, "Do you mind the rain?" "Not at all. It reminds me of Dublin." "That's exactly what I was thinking" and we sat on a picnic table until 3:30 am while the rain streamed down on us.

And thus ended my sophmore year. I can't wait to see what next year will be.

"In what is said there is always an excess of the unsaid." -Truth and Freedom by Cardinal Ratzinger, now Benedict XVI.